SLO RTA

Today was my first day at my new job. SLO RTA is where you can find info about it. For a first day, everything went pretty darn well. Everyone seems really cool and they seem pretty genuine. It's like everyone likes there job. I know once I start really "working" there I'll see a few jaded folks but for now I couldn't ask for anything better.

I think this new job could positively or negatively effect my health. Obviously I'll be sitting most of the time. But I'll have more structure to my days too. These next few weeks could be a great opportunity to eat modestly so I don't have to use the restroom too much. It will be interesting how things go once I start the driving full time.

Sugar

Today I "treated" myself to some sugar. I know I shouldn't. There's really no reason to do it. Other than I'm kinda lonely and I'm anxious about my new job and new schedule that will happen soon.

Consistency?

Went to the gym again tonight. Not for long. Only was on the machines for about 40 minutes or so. But the fact that I made it there and followed through really pleases me. I had a hundred excuses in my back pocket tonight not to go. With all that's going on with my car and tomorrow being my (likely) last full day off for a while I could have easily detoured to In-N-Out instead and gotten myself some burger(s) and fries... and maybe a shake. But I didn't. I'll probably have a late night snack still but I'm sure it will be half the calories I would have consumed. And I worked out my heart and emotionally and mentally I feel good right now.

Hopefully "Bob" the mechanic can fix my car tomorrow and I can feel even better.

No Sugar

For the last 2 days I've managed to avoid sweets. It hasn't been easy. But hopefully it will get easier as each day I stay away from sugar. This new diabetes number has really put things in perspective for me. I'm not eating great but lately I've been more conscious of what and how much food I put in my mouth. And today I went to the gym for about an hour. Feeling good about things, like I'm on the right track. Gotta keep it that way.

6.8

Went to the doc today. My A1C level was 6.8. I guess it's "official" now. I'm diabetic. I'm up to 5 different prescription pills now. I should only be taking 1 if I were healthy (I'll probably have to battle uric acid the rest of my life.) The huge meals and large amounts of sugar has to STOP. I've been decent about the sugar lately. When I bought soda the other day it was all diet (yeah, I know that stuff isn't great foe me either).

I mean, there are so many positives to eating better and exercising more. I've talked about this stuff for years. But now that I"m near 4 bills and middle-aged doing those things seem more urgent than ever. I'm planning on going to the gym this afternoon. Gotta take it one day at a time. Smaller meals, less sugar and more more. That's the plan.

Toilet seat

The last few days have not been good. Had a major sugar relapse with some Ben & Jerrys and Coke. I think about my next meal constantly. I'm a food addict. And its my responsibility to arrest this compulsion. It's hard but I need to keep FIGHTING!

Tonight I broke the toilet seat in the bathroom. How embarrasing. Especially since I share the bathroom. Obviously I will get another one asap. Another sign of my morbid obesity.

Day 2

This is my first post from my phone. Not a bad day. I went to the gym and didn't have any sugar again. Gotta keep it going!

397

That's the number the scale at the Doctor's office read when I went to get my physical for my new job. I usually subtract 2lbs for shoes and clothes so my "official" recorded weight is 395. Being that close to 400 is a huge (pun intended) wake up call.

Well, today I made some small changes. Assuming I don't go out and buy any food, today will be the first day in many months that I haven't had any sweets. Stuff like candy, ice cream, shakes, regular soda, etc. I'm pretty sure I'm addicted to sugar. I don't want to completely abstain from it (after all sugar is in A LOT of foods) but in my ideal world it would be a treat reserved for special occasions. Or at most once a week or so. Not everyday like I've been doing recently.

 I also didn't really eat too bad today. Kept things modest and tried to spread my food out more evenly throughout the day. And... I went on a short hike and walked the dogs this evening. Overall, a pretty good day. When I lay my head down to rest I'm fairly certain I'll feel proud of my actions today. And maybe I can string a few more of these type of days together?