Thursday, January 22, 2015

MindPrep HW2

My parents were always overweight, but not super obese. I have a sister who is very obese and another that is overweight. And my brother is normal weight. My grandparents were normal weight as far as I could tell. I personally think genetics have very little to do with my weight.

Culture and Environment:
Growing up we didn't eat a ton of junk for but often times the food wasn't that great for you either. Mostly a typical American diet except that we had white rice at almost every meal. That being said, I was never really heavy until I hit my 20's. Even though I feel I'm well versed about nutrition and exercise I slowly ate out more and more. And sometimes didn't even care at all about how much food I was eating. I created my own culture of excess.

I'm guessing I have a typical metabolism. It's definitely not high, but when I eat right and exercise I do lose weight. I can't eat whatever I want like my brother-in-law. I know my metabolism revs up if I'm doing resistance training and staying away from bad carbs.

Illness and Medications:
I don't think I get ill more often than most people my age. I get the occasional cold or flu but nothing too crazy. I am on many medications. I think I would probably be able to get off all of them if I got down to a more normal weight. Might have to keep the one for gout though since I had those flairs before I became morbidly obese,

I sleep fairly well because I use a CPAP. I do notice when I eat better/less that I'll sleep for longer stretches. If I'm eating a lot of junk, especially before bed then I'll typically wake up after 4-5 hours to use the bathroom. When I'm eating right I'll sleep about 6-7 hours straight. I do feel somewhat tired on most days. I think that's just because of my weight. Even when I get 8-10 hours of sleep I'll often feel a little tired. This is way better than what it was before the CPAP though. Before that I was lethargic all the time.

Personal Behaviors:
Well, obviously, I have a history of not exercising regularly and eating too much of the wrong things. Those behaviors need to change for me to be successful with this weight loss.

Psychological Aspects:
Being overweight can play a heavy role on the psyche. Especially when you are as big as I am. I know that people look at me differently. One guy on the bus actually asked me how heavy I was. Most people are cool about it though. But unless you're my weight you don't really understand everything that a big person goes through. I can't do certain things in life. In general, the opposite sex is not attracted to me. And my self esteem suffers sometimes too. When I lose this weight I will definitely be more confident. It's going to affect so many areas of my life in a positive way.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

MindPrep HW1

1. Over the past several years, maybe a decade or more, I've thought about what it would be like to get weight loss surgery. It was basically a pipe dream for me though since I didn't have health insurance. When I did get health insurance in mid-2013 I realized this dream could become a reality. Over time my weight has slowly crept up (with some times of significant weight loss in there too). I was near 400lbs, a weight I thought I'd NEVER see. As I gained weight health problems arose, diabetes, high blood pressure, gout, high cholesterol, high triglycerides, sleep apnea etc. And the daily aches and pains of lugging that weight around. My relationships suffered in that I couldn't do as much "stuff". Active things like I loved doing when I was younger. I currently get cramps at night because of my job. I know this would be alleviated also if I were thinner. This is the perfect time to get this done before my weight gets completely out of control. I'm still relatively young and it's time to take charge of my life so I can get the most out of it now and in the future.

2. Almost everyone in my life has been very supportive. My two best friends Mike and Sean especially. But also my friends at work, acquaintances I see and meet, and other good friends/people I've told about the surgery. When I told my mom about it a few weeks ago she didn't seem to excited about it but I just think she doesn't realize how important it is for someone like me. She wasn't against it. She just emphasized exercising a lot to me. Everyone important in my life I've already told. If I do come across someone who it against it I'll let them know the benefits of it and the success I've seen.

3. I'm excited about this incredible opportunity to have this tool to finally help me get in shape. I'll live longer, feel better and be able to do more with my life. So many aspects of my life will improve as I shed the weight. I'm looking forward to getting off most if not all of my medications. To being able to shop in regular stores for clothes. To be more active and do more fun activities with friends. To be able to do my job better/easier. To feel more confident. To be able to show the world the person that I really am. I'm concerned about the long term eating. I don't want to fall back into bad habits once I lose the weight. So many people gain much of the weight back because they don't stick with their diet and exercise. I'm confident I can do it but I know it will be a day to day challenge.

4. I plan on walking up a flight of stairs and not feeling winded. I plan on taking a trip back to Colorado and exercising at Red Rocks amphitheatre. And going up the 402 steps straight through. I plan on getting on a plane and not making the person next to me uncomfortable and not have to wear a seatbelt extender. I'd like to visit my father in Hawaii and pay my respects to him. It's been too long since I've seen his burial site. I'm going to maintain a weight of LESS THAN 300lbs for the REST OF MY LIFE. There is NO reason I cannot accomplish this goal with this incredible tool I've been blessed with. I plan on becoming a healthier, more confident man and finding a partner in life that shares my lifestyle goals and ambitions.

5. I'm tracking my food on MyFitnessPal. I'm walking more. I'm joining a gym. I'm finding local hiking trails. I'm cutting out sugar from my diet. I'm cutting out soda from my diet. I'm limiting my caffeine intake and cutting out coffee. I'm drinking LOTS of water. I'm letting everyone know about my new lifestyle so they can support me.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

This is IT

Last Thursday was a rough day for me. I found out the woman I (thought) I loved was about to meet another. And earlier in the day was hit with a set of stringent guidelines on what I should and shouldn't be eating to prepare for surgery.

So far I think I've handled both pretty well. I've leaned on some close friends for some good advice (and actually took some of it!) As for the girl, so many emotions have crossed my mind the last week. Ultimately I've accepted and understand what she's doing. Quite honestly, if the roles were reversed I'd probably be doing the same thing. That Sting song that goes "If you love somebody set them free" keeps going through my head. She's a wonderful person and I love her too much to wish anything but happiness towards her. If it's meant to be, we'll end up together. And if I don't there's no doubt I'll find a quality woman in the next few years. Only time will tell what will happen.

And the health stuff kind of dovetails with the female stuff. My two best friends Mike and Sean both pretty much said the same things. "This is a HUGE opportunity for you to change your life FOREVER. Imagine how great your life will be when the pounds come off. You gotta do it anyway so just kick ass and do it. You'll have plenty of chicks to choose from once you can show them who you really are."

It would have been easy for me to revert to my same old habits and go back to eating a bunch of crap. And HOPING I could bullshit my way through this surgery and come out on the other end and change. But I really need to make those changes now. I've been walking everyday and I'm probably going to re-join my gym. Don't get me wrong, it hasn't been easy. Cutting my calories by more than have has been crazy (in a good way). But I'm not going to blow this. This really is the opportunity of a lifetime. My life is improving everyday. The results I'll see in the coming months and years will be AMAZING.

Gotta do it ONE DAY AT A TIME